EDIT: Having re-read this i felt that this should have really began:
I'd like to thank the academy for this award, my parents, everyone who believed in me....
Strangely enough? Aye. stupid stereotypes. As weird as it sounds the night of my birthday was the first time in i can't remember how long i actually felt a sense of tranquility (despite being in the middle of a club) and having stopped drinking for a bit i pulled myself to the side and started thinking about things, about a lot of stuff that'd happened in the past year, the friends i'd made, and the ones i'd unfortunately lost for various reasons, and instead of getting down like i normally do i just decided to <explicit deleted> it i was gonna have fun, and looking at my friends all together and having fun just lifted my spirits again and i woke up the next morning with a new sense of direction in my life.
1. I'm taking control of my life again because i've been drifting the last while.
2. I've cut a lot of dead weight from my life
3. I'm writing a lot more with a new sense of direction, well at least it's there in my head and it's not as mournful as it used to be
4. I've decided that seeing as how there's a certain lass in my life who won't leave me alone no matter what i do (not in the comedic sense btw) i've decided that i need to give myself a break from that part of my life too. because a lass who doesn't know if she's pregnant or not every time shes with a guy worries me a lot. In addition being the last to find out is something that really didn't carry a lot of weight with me.
This post has been edited by Nightstalker on Jan 2 2009, 11:53 PM