Title: I Remember That I Loved You
Author: UrbanExtacy
Category: AU
Spoilers: None
Summary: Dean's soul stood, the inky black fading through the blanket of the night. Dean's back. For Sam.

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AN: I'm posting a series of short stories in here. Nothing paticular about them. Pleae read.









When Im around, Nothing bad's gonna happen to you.

"I'm gona' hunt you down and skin you alive." A voice once spoken with genorosity and earnest, spoken with love and care were now subsided to the sharp edges of a cliff, hollow and dark consumed all around that one sentence.

"I'm gonna' rip you limp from limp. Breaking every bone in your body, untill there's nothing else but a miserable pulp lying at my feet." The laugh was cruel, tinging on the line of obsessivness.

"You'll be beggin' for mercy." He screamed to hells fire envoloping him, consuming him, dulling his heart into flake's of dark ashes.

Dark souless eye's transformed into black just like his heart was consumed by, began it's task from climbing it's way through Hell. Ready to hunt down who caused this whole mess from the start, killing everyone he ever loved in the process.

Sam.

"I will Kill you..." Dean whispered sharply to the sounds of hell fire, broken screams, terror, blood...Death.

And yet he,

"Sammy.." Dean whispered brokenly.

It's only been a month but Dean has already broken, but to make matters worse he's a Wincester but then again. - His father didn't love him, his father used him, manipulated him into being a good soilder for daddy and dumping Sam's lame ass on his responsibilty.

Dean's responsibility now is to kill and follow foot steps behind Lilith. He want's to kill. Killing.

Starting with Jo then Ellen, through everyone him and Sam ever loved. Finaly to Bobby.

Killing them slow, like pulling the eight leg's off a spider. Painful and slow. Bloody and gorey.

One way to hurt Sam is to first kill thoose he care's about. Then Dean will take his time, breaking every bone in Sam's body. From his fingers, to his ribs, to hip bones, skull and everyone of them inbetween.

Enjoying every secoond of it.

Why?

Because, Sam's to blame. For mom's death, for the yellow eyed demon, dad making that deal for him all because Sam said to him he wasn't a good father - All in all was true, never use to be - but now Dean's see's straight through it.

"I hate you." Dean roared when he finaly was free from all the hand's grasping him, pulling him back under but Dean just hissed and ventured on until finaly he was free.

Dean's soul stood, the inky black fading through the blanket of the night.

I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight.
There's nothing more for me - lead me away.
Or leave me lying here.

Dean is dead, his part to play is over, and he isn't coming back not atleast as Sam's big brother.

And yet a small part of Dean whispers.

"I remember - I remember that I loved you"

*
Kinda' sad actually.
I scared myself writing this. :unsure:

Title: I Love You
Author: UrbanExtacy
Category: AU
Spoilers: None
Summary: Sam's speech to his beloved brother.








"I'm sorry I coldn't save you...." Sam couldn’t catch his breath, tears flowing faster and his nose clogging.

"4 days" Sam stated, not knowing why.

"I tried killing myself the first night at Bobbies house. Slahsed my rists with your knife that sleep with under your pillow, just to know some part of you was there when I died." Sam sobbed.

"But I just healed"

The young man kneeled before the grave, his heart emotionally missing; torn straight out fromhis chest.

"Dean..." Sam traced his finger over the engraved name: Dean

"I'm alone - Dean....I'm all alone" Sam cried and sat on the ground in front of his brother's headstone.

"I -I...Dean, I can't die...I just heal...." He stopped as his throat began to hurt again and tears welled. "My powers, there back - Lillth tried to kill me, just before the hellhounds..." He stopped taking a deap breath."... but she couldn't. Demons, spirits, nothing Dean...Nothing kills me"

Tears trail down Sam's eye's, his eye's red rimmed from crying.

"It stared because of the yellow eyed demon...." Sam looked away from the headstone, as if ashamed f himself "I kept alot secrets from you big brother. I think it's time you should know."

"When I was a baby - it came in my room Dean, It fed me blood - It's blood Dean....It shown me....I can't...." Sam's eye's began to glaze over, vision going blurry.

"Mom knew it Dean, She knew it" Sam picked at the grass.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you...So sorry"

"I sometimes wish you would come back as a Demon. Just so I could see you. Just one more time...God, Please Dean...I misss you.....You have no idea how much…"

"What I wold give to just see you - one last time..." He whipped at his tears and rested his hands against the headstone, caresing the brick lovingly.

"I still keep a photograph of us were ever I go - " He smilled softly " - It's the one back in Richardson, Texas. Remember? I loved that day Dean - We actually laughed and I glued your hand to the bear bottel, your palm was red rore when we finally got your hand of"

Sam took the folded photograph out of his jean's pocket and held it up infront of the headstone.

"See your baby's in there to - she's okay by the way - I take care of her for you"

"I still have memories Dean, and I love them and hate them all at once"

"It wasn't supose' to end like this" Sam shook his head , his bangs flying into his eye's.

"I wish - I don't know what to wish for Dean. If ol' yellow eye's didn't exsist then maybe -" Sam chocked back onhis tears.

"I need you here Dean. By my side to help me with this war - It's too hard, I-I need my brother" Sam's voice cracked and he buried his fae into his hand's, crying for three minutes before continuing.

"If you can't come back - I want to go to you - I want to die and go to hell to Dean, just so I can be with you"

"But I can't - I do know of one way Dean but I can't do it alone..."

"...I asked Bobby - but he wouldn't do it, I tried myself but the pain prevented me from speaking"

Sam's gaze travelled back to Dean' headtoine once more.

"Exoricism" Sam finally spoke. "I'm part Demon"

"Gordon was right - I'm evil" Sam said "And ever since I let you die - It confirms I am. For not trying harder enough"

"I just want you to know - I love you, I never said it but I do Dean. Y-your the best big brother I - no, anyone, could ever ask for. You saved me over and over and I promised you I would save you -" Sam stopped while his diaphragm went into a spasm before continuing "- but I failed you didn't I?"

"How can anyone imagine eternity alone? - What If I never die and then I'll be alone forever, and I can't. I could if you were here, but I can't."

"I listened to Bon Jovi again - Like the night, when....." Sam cut himself off.

"I've lost so many Dean, and you were always there to comfort me. Jess, dad, Madison...But who's going to comfort me now?"

Suddenly a spark of defient glinted in Sam's eyes when he spoken,

"If it's the last thing I do - I'll get you out of there and If I can't? Ill find away to get down there so we can be together again"