This is an Instant Star oneshot, but you'll understant the story even though you haven't seen the show. The lines written in bold are from a poem that I've written... so story and poem written by me...



Come back to me


Like an angel without wings

I lie curled up in the middle of the bed
Desperately trying to keep my tears from falling
When I feel the warm salt roll down my cheek
I quickly wipe them away.
Holding on to my knees
I scream into the darkness
The sound of my voice soon fades away
Gone.
My voice is gone.
It doesn’t matter, really.
Nothing matters anymore.

I try to forget.
I need to forget.
But I can’t.
I won’t.
Closing my eyes, I see you.
My breath hitches in my throat
I can’t hold back the sobs anymore.
I reach out to you.
Your skin.
Your smile.
Your warm and gentle eyes.
But just as my hand connects with yours
You fade away.
And I’m all alone again.
Again.

Trapped down on earth

I remember our last kiss
The last taste of love
It was only a quick peck on the mouth
You were in a hurry
I wish I could go back in time
Back to that day
I’d give anything to go back
And kiss you deeply
I wish I’d told you
“I love you”
Because I do

I can only hope that when you left
You knew how much I needed you
How much I still need you
You’ve got my heart
Did you know that?
Did I ever tell you I belonged to you?
I blink and try to make the memories go away
Not ready for them yet
Not ready to admit that a memory
Is the only thing I have left

So tender and sweet

I get up and slowly walk through the cold house
Not a sound
Not even a whisper
I can’t remember your voice anymore
Not once do I glance over at the photos
Not once do I turn to look back
My mustang is waiting for me
Ready to take me away
Take me away
To the place I know I’ll find you
You’ve been waiting for a long time
I just haven’t been ready
Until now
I think I’m ready
But I’m not sure
Not sure of anything anymore
Wish I’d gone with you that day

The streets are empty
Not a single person is to be seen
It’s the middle of the night
I guess everyone’s sleeping
And I feel more alone than ever
Knowing that I’m the only one awake
Driving
I wish I could sleep
I haven’t slept for weeks
I want to sleep

Scared to get hurt

I panic when I realize that by doing this
I’m finally letting go
It’s over
And I’m not sure if that’s what I want
Not sure I’m ready
To loose you
By doing this I’m admitting to myself that
There’s no us anymore
You’re not here
Driving through the dark streets
I realize
There’s no going back
I’ve been holding on to the memories
I’ve been reliving our last moments
Wrapped up in my own sorrow
Too blind to see that I’m not living at all
I need to live again

I kill the engine and get out of the car
Taking my time
I know this must be done
I’m afraid to do it
Wish I could stop the time
So that I could stay with you longer
Forever
I walk through the green grass
Feel it tickle my bare feet
Dark shapes surround me
I know what they are
I don’t want to know
But there they are
Hundreds of them
Everywhere
I don’t look at them as I continue to walk
Each movement making my sobs grow harder
Wondering if this was a bad decision
Can I go back?

A whisper in the wind

I close my eyes
Trying to shut out the pain
It won’t let go
It’s the only thing I’ve got now
The pain
Thinking this must be done
Letting go
And as my eyes stay closed
I continue to walk
I see your face again
Waiting for me
Waiting

Nothing matters
But the smile you give me
The tears in your eyes
You’re here with me
You won’t let me go though this alone
I reach out again
I want to hold you
But I can’t
I can’t

Like a mild summer breeze

My blonde hair is flying in the wind
The cold, cruel wind
I shiver and open my eyes
I see the dark sky
Thousands of stars looking down at me
Studying my shivering figure
And I see a small raindrop
Fall onto the ground in front of me
It’s like they’re crying
The stars
They’re crying for me

Thousands of moments
All gone in a blink
Never can I have what we once shared
There are no second chances
We had our time together
Surely, that has to be enough
But what do I do when I realize
That’s it’s not enough
And I want more
Give me more!
If only a minute
Filled with love
With you
Is all I can have
I’ll take it
I’ll take it

Calling her home

I can still feel your hands on my body
Soft
Sweet
Your masculine smell that always makes me feel safe
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale
I’m breathing you
I remember when my entire world broke down
I remember
Won’t ever forget
The moment you left
There was a phone call
I still hear the shrilling tune
Echoing through the house
Late at night
Telling me you won’t be back
Never walk through the door again
You lips are cold
My soul is lost

I stop dead in my tracks and lower my gaze
I take a deep
Deep
Deep
Breath
I know what I must do
Tears are clouding my vision
As I remove the golden ring
From my finger
It feels cold and naked without it
A ring of promise
It’s been with me for so long
So long
Not long enough
I place it
On the cold headstone in front of me
It’s so pure
So innocent
The last thing that binds us together
A single ring
Reminding me
Of you

With my last breath
I wipe my tears away
Gone
Gone now
I read the inscription
Engraved into the stone
In front of me
My body shivers
As I take in the words
“Here lies Thomas Quincy”
You
Here lies
You
And I’ll be going home alone tonight

“Come back to me”