Title: When Words Aren't Enough
Description: Missing scene from CSPWDT (Spoilers)
Uni - November 2, 2006 10:51 AM (GMT)
This is only my second Supernatural fanfic so I hope you all like it. Let me know what you think. If you all like it enough, I may even write a sequel. So please review!
Disclaimer: Supernatural is not mine. Sam and Dean are not mine. If they were, I’d clone them and sell them to other fans and keep the originals for myself to play with.
Summary: Sam comforts Dean after his emotional confession after Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things.
When Words Aren’t Enough
The words seemed to keep echoing though Sam’s mind...
So tell me, what could you possibly say to make that all right?
The problem was, there wasn’t anything he could say. Not anything that Dean would accept anyway. He shouldn’t have looked away, he realized, after seeing his brother nod his acceptance out of the corner of his eye before looking in the other direction. It was just so hard to see that tear slide down his face.
He couldn’t remember the last time he’d seen Dean cry, and even though part of him had been expecting the grief to show itself sooner or later, even hope that he’d stop bottling it all up inside, it didn’t make it any easier to see.
It was ironic, how somewhere in the back of his mind he’d thought that Dean would feel better to talk about his emotions and maybe shed some healing tears, but nothing, nothing had prepared him for this.
Nothing had prepared him for Dean feeling guilty just for being alive.
First the faith healer and now this, he thought sadly. Twice now his brother had been headed towards death, and twice somehow he had been pulled to a screeching halt. Sam knew Dean was hurting, but in emotional discomfort or not he was just grateful his brother was alive. When he’d seen Dean’s heart stop in the hospital, he’d felt like his own had stopped along with it, like a part of him was dying with Dean.
He was sitting right next to Dean, but as the silence stretched on miles might as well have been between them. No… there was nothing he could really say. He couldn’t say it’d be okay, it wasn’t okay, he couldn’t make it okay, nothing might ever be okay again, and he respected Dean too much to try to comfort him with false words.
He couldn’t say anything to make Dean feel less guilty, he still felt guilty himself about Jess’s death and anything he said about this would just make him look like a hypocrite.
Looking over at Dean again he saw that he was trying to pull himself together and failing. His chin was trembling and more tears hung on the edge of his eyelashes, just waiting to fall, and he found himself reacting before he could think about it.
Dean tried to pull away, just as he knew he would, as he slipped his arms around him and pulled him into an embrace, and he purposely let out a small pained gasp that he normally would’ve stifled when his broken wrist was jarred. Dean immediately stilled, as he knew he would, the big brother in him not wanting to harm him any further, looking out for him as always, even when he was so distressed himself.
After a moment he felt Dean give in and lean against him, even putting his own arms around him to hug back. He sighed softly in relief, thinking that when words aren’t enough, sometimes actions speak louder.
He felt Dean’s body shaking as his shoulder grew damp from his brother’s silent tears, felt a tear slide down his own cheek, and his mind flashed back to Bobby’s junkyard and the snarky comment Dean had made.
Come here. I wanna lay my head gently on your shoulder. Maybe we can cry, and hug, and maybe even slow dance.
How ironic. It would’ve even been funny, if it wasn’t so desperately sad.
Swan1 - November 2, 2006 06:07 PM (GMT)
Uni, That was lovely! Just what sooo many of us are thnking should've happened....Thank you! I do think that eventually the brothers will evole to where they are able to hug each other like adults and derive some mutual comfort. They need it so badly!
Swan1 - November 2, 2006 06:12 PM (GMT)
Sorry for typos--I menat "evolve" and "thinking" Sheesh---very tired right now :)
Uni - November 2, 2006 11:36 PM (GMT)
|QUOTE (Swan1 @ Nov 2 2006, 06:07 PM)|
| Uni, That was lovely! Just what sooo many of us are thnking should've happened....Thank you! I do think that eventually the brothers will evole to where they are able to hug each other like adults and derive some mutual comfort. They need it so badly! |
Thank you. I'm so glad you like it, and I agree. A real hug for them on the show is loooong overdue. This little fic would not get out of my head until I wrote it down. Hugs for the brothers and all around! :hug
Supernaturalxx - November 2, 2006 11:56 PM (GMT)
I enjoyed this, Its not all the time we see Dean break down and for you to stretch out that scene for us, It was nice.
Good job :)
Uni - November 3, 2006 04:46 AM (GMT)
Glad you liked it Katie, I enjoyed writing it.
JoAnne - November 4, 2006 08:08 AM (GMT)
Thank you, Uni for giving us this hug. I really feel when that day comes, all dams will break for both of them and I sure hope we will get to see that! You have helped us imagine it for now!
Great missing scene. :clap :clap
Uni - November 4, 2006 10:49 PM (GMT)
Thanks for the review JoAnne, and yes, I SO want them to hug on the show! Oh and I just love your banner and picture. :drool2
chaelchael - November 5, 2006 05:27 PM (GMT)
very nice. i'm happy you wrote another story! it was really sweet and sad and i liked it. :cry ...good tears i swear!
Celticwench - November 5, 2006 07:50 PM (GMT)
That was beautiful!! Poor Dean has been needing a hug for ages!!
It was good that he finally cried but it wasn't cathartic---it only made us feel worse for him so your story lent us some relief--thank you!
I hope that Dean has some catharsis soon....IMO he needs to sob his heart out and then get engulfed in a huge hug---preferably by Sammy! :wub:
carikube - November 5, 2006 08:53 PM (GMT)
Beautiful! It felt natural and right, and that's about the only time that Dean would accept physical comfort from his brother. Poor, poor broken Dean. Have you posted this at fanfiction-net? I haven't seen it over there, or have I just missed it?
dudeyourefugly - November 5, 2006 09:56 PM (GMT)
I have to agree with Carikube, that was simply beautiful. If only the writers of SN were in contact with you! That last line was perfect as well. *sniffs* i may just have to go watch that scene again.
Write more fanfic, you're really good xxx
ziggy - November 5, 2006 09:57 PM (GMT)
Absolutely beautiful and so true to the boys, great writing, loved it!
Uni - November 6, 2006 04:20 AM (GMT)
Oh you all are making me blush. :blush No I haven't posted it at fanfiction.net. Do you think I should? I like to write and I love Supernatural. I didn't think I could actually make anybody cry with this! Thank you so much for all your nice comments.
Swan1 - November 6, 2006 06:33 AM (GMT)
Should you post there...? YES! I would encourage you to contact veteran writers who have won awards such as bjxmas and irismay42 :wub:
You have talent!! :D I am an "older lady i e. over 30 LOLand "professional ".... the level of writing I see at thfanfiction site often isAMAZING.
I used to teach Englsh Lit ....Any hooo Keep it up!!
Uni - November 7, 2006 02:52 AM (GMT)
I made an account at fanfiction.net but they don't let new writers post for a few days. Humph. Anyway thank you everyone for all your encouragement. I just wrote and posted a new fic over in the humor section called Poor Old Yeller.
goofyape - December 6, 2006 10:58 PM (GMT)
This is very well done! Why isn't it over at fanfiction.net? Just curious....what else have you written...You seem to have a good perception of the guys' real feelings...
What might you write about how Dean was feeling after Crossroads? :)
Uni - December 8, 2006 03:43 AM (GMT)
This fanfic is up at Fanfiction.net now. As for after Crossroads, hmm... I don't know! :lol:
Irishgirl - January 4, 2007 05:05 AM (GMT)