Desperation

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi hurried down the hall to Dina's office. Now that he had figured out a solution to his 'problem', he was very enthusiastic to see Dina again. He could just... just... He stopped. What was he going to do? All he knew was that he needed to see her again. And then he could think.

Good plan. Hoshi started walking again. Practically jogging by the time he got close. He stood in front of the door for only a second of hesitation before opening it.

"Dina!" Hoshi shouted her name as he burst through the door. "I thought maybe we could... finish what we started."

[Dina Listra]

Dina looked up from her paperwork, oblivious to what he'd just said. She'd registered her name and looked up but was too busy taking in the fact that he'd burst in unannounced to listen to his request.

But the bulge in the front of his pants got it across without words.

Damnit, she had been trying to forget him! And now he runs in here with a raging hard-on...He was being so difficult. She dropped her eyes back onto the papers in front of her.

"No." Simple and, quite honestly, not very firm, but she hoped it would be enough to get him to understand her. If she did something with him again....that false hope would return. And, in the end, she was very worried about doing anything with....him...so close....

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, ignoring that thought. No need to worry. Nothing was going to happen anyway. She wouldn't let him convince her to do anything, ever. She couldn't risk it. She'd only end up heartbroken...gah, ignoring, thinking about something else...Puppies! Yes, fluffy puppies, how wonderful- gah, everything just ends in sex doesn't it?!

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi swore his heart stopped beating for a second. "...What?"

No, that wasn't... how could she not... He swallowd, and gripped the doorframe for support. This was really not fair. Two weeks... without one sight of her and now... He couldn't stand this. The rejection was painful. To... every part of his body. He was not used to rejection.

"Wait... you can't..." Hoshi stopped himself. Desperation was not the way to go. If he sounded too desperate, than she wouldn't even consider what he had to say. "I've been... thinking about you a lot." He admitted. "I just..." Hoshi slammed his fist into the wall. Screw this. "God, I can't get you out of my mind. You don't understand. Nothing... it's never like this. Please!"

[Dina Listra]

Dina stared off into the distance, eyes wide. He couldn't honestly be serious, could he? He didn't really feel that needy for her did he? Well...she glanced over at him again...Yes, it was believable. But her answer was still-

"No, you don't understand." She stood up and pressed her palms against the desk, "If we do this...I'll end up even more convinced that..." She swallowed and looked away. He didn't need to know about any of that, "I'll just end up hurt. Maybe before it was just sex but now..." She sighed, "I'm a little confused, that's all. With you so jealous of Kane for no reason..."

Although she did her best to resist it, her eyes rolled into her head at this idea. Hoshi was very stereotypical-man in his self-concious jealousy. However, to be threatened by a seventeen year old boy with a daughter on the way...Well...that was enough to make her worry that he cared more than he let on. The curse wasn't something she wanted to mess with. And if that meant forgoing sex and making herself suffer more pain...it didn't matter.

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi's scowl deepened. He knew there was no relationship, there never was, but... they couldn't go back to just sex? Not even... that? Hoshi took a deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment, counted to ten. He could think better now that a little less blood was rushing to bottom half of his body. The rejection had made him wilt a bit. But it was still obvious that he wanted her.

Time for a change of tactics then. Since words weren't working... Hoshi crossed the room and embraced her from behind, leaning his head on her shoulder so that when he spoke, his warm breath tickled her neck. "Don't worry about Kane..." Hoshi whispered. There was something very intimate about lovers whispering to each other. If we could even be called lovers... Hoshi thought bitterly. "Don't worry about later... just now. I know you want me, too..."

[Dina Listra]

Dina shuddered, her breath caught in her throat. His touch sent heat rushing from her chest to her face, and suddenly it was very apparant that she really did want him. As much as she didn't want to admit it.

She stood up, pressing him back although he still held her. Now she didn't find herself imagining things, but unfortunately left her lips quite open. Avoiding the more obvious route (which she didn't want, really) of moving out of his embrace, she began speaking. Hopefully that would stave off any oral attacks.

"I don't know what you're talking about, Hoshi-san. I'm not even sure why you're here. I thought you wanted to be alone. After all, with the curse, how could you allow yourself to be invested in me in any way? It all ends in a very messy manner. Wait, I worded that wrong. I meant more in the me dying sort of way."

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi frowned at her words, but he was pleased that he was right about her feelings. As for the curse, well... one night of great sex wouldn't make him love her. And in the future... he hoped this would be it, end his desperate need to just be with her. If they broke the curse... well, it wasn't going to happen. So he wouldn't bother hoping.

Hoshi turned her around gently in his arms so that she was facing him. He cupped her face in his hands and gave her a true smile. "You can't imagine how lonely it gets... We don't have to worry about the curse for one night..."

Hoshi closed the few inches between them and kissed her deeply.

[Dina Listra]

And she melted. He smiled so genuinely, so sincerely, that she knew he wasn't just going to use her and forget about her. Or rather, that he didn't plan to, but there was always that fear. Not to mention his kiss, which was deep and slow. She relaxed for a moment, allowing him to taste her as she basically went limp to his touch. His lips were so soft and inviting and...God, he was impossible!

She pushed him off, silently chiding herself for letting him kiss her as long as he did, "I know lonely." She spread her fingers on his chest, keeping him a good distance away from her, "I'm not going to be tossed aside like worthless whore. I sign your paychecks, you know." Which was a lie, but she did have the power to fire him if she really wanted to.

And at the moment...she studied her hands on his chest. It was a strangely intimate gesture, now that she thought about it. Were Hoshi a woman she would have been charged with sexual harassment for touching him like this. Yet she didn't feel the need to move her hands. Or rather, she resisted it.

Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, she met his eyes again, "You won't...hurt me, will you? You won't use me and then never call again?" Being with him, even if it was just for sex, suddenly frightened her. Timid and virginal, her stomach flipped and her heart sped in her chest. Why was it that a mission that involved sex had been so easy, but when he came to her and asked to make love to her it was so much more important?

[Hoshi Sohma]

Dina melted into his kiss. She didn't exactly return it, but let him do what he had wanted for so long. She finally pushed him away and it took Hoshi a second to focus on what she was saying. He wondered if she realized that her body language was the complete opposite of her words. It at least proved to him that his needs were about to be met.

He brought his hands from his chest to his lips, kissing them lightly. "I would never toss you away like that..." Hoshi couldn't promise love, couldn't promise a real relationship, but sex... He could do that. In fact, it would be his pleasure.

He placed her hands on his shoulders and his own around her waist, pulling her close. "Trust me" Hoshi commanded, and kissed her again.

[Dina Listra]

Dina sighed, completely lost in the sensations he pulled from her. He was trustworthy, she supposed. Or maybe her head had lost control of her body and now it was thinking for her. It wouldn't be the first time.

For a few moments she didn't move to help in their kiss at all. In fact, all she did was sit there while his tongue delved into her mouth. It was at least a minute before she thought to react and kiss him back, and even then it was shy and teasing. This time was so much different. She didn't know how to do anything now.

She felt weak. And she hated it as much as she loved it. Her legs were weak, and her resolve. Not to mention the soft bits between her legs. For a moment she wondered if he had expected her to take the lead like last time, and perhaps her practically vegetable response hadn't pleased him. Oh, God, why was she the one being seduced?!

Finally, she had had enough. Gripping his shoulders tightly in both of her hands, she pushed him backwards towards her bedroom. Their lips were still locked and her body was tight against his, every fiber of her aching to be even closer. The door was ajar so she simply continued easing him forward until she felt him fall on his back on the bed, leaving her lips completely alone for the first time in ages. Or, at least it seemed that way.

Now what? She stood over him, smiling vaguely, as her eyes traced his body slowly, taking in every minute detail.

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi was afraid for awhile that maybe Dina wasn't enjoying this as much as he was. She was almost frozen within his embrace, not returning the kiss or making any noises to let him know if he was even doing a good job. His fears were quickly assuaged, though her response wasn't as passionate as his, as passionate as before in his office. Damn... Maybe she was afraid? That would certainly make what he wanted harder. Although she really hadn't had any qualms about this before.

He couldn't help grinning, however, when Dina lost her shyness, and pulled him into the bedroom, pushing him down on the bed. Her eyes traced his figure and his body itched with the desire to be touched. He stood up momentarily, to grab her around the waist, and pull her down on top of him.

Hoshi rolled them over so he was on the top and smiled sensually, tracing a finger down her cheekbone. "Much better."

[Dina Listra]

Dina felt immediate pleasure at the feel of the heavy body above her. There was no better feeling in the world. She sank into her fantasies, imagining this sort of thing happening every night for the rest of their lives. His finger softly caressed her and he smiled down like this was the only thing he'd ever wanted. Like she was all he ever wanted.

She reached up and lightly gripped the back of his head, pulling him forward so she could inhale him again. He tasted of ancient texts and youthful recklessness. Something familiar and something new and exciting. Part of her was frightened at this thought, and she had to resist the urge to glance over at the cabinet that held the urn that held...Inwardly, she sighed. There was no use avoiding Hoshi and no use thinking about him. All that was there was the moment, one she may never have the chance to experience again.

The kiss stretched on for ages, it seemed. Her fingers clutched at his long hair. After a few minutes, she needed to press herself up against him more, and ended up wrapping her legs around his hips, moaning as she felt his excitement against her. Now she hung off of him, more desperate for him than he seemed to be for her. Starving for just one night.

[Hoshi Sohma]

Dina kissed him again, this time regaining more of her usual spunk, for which he was glad. He had almost thought for a moment that maybe she didn't want to do this after all, that this... option may not be feasible for the future. Dina pulled him down closer to her, and he entagled his hands in her hair while kissing her back with a passionate fury.

He was breathing hard when they surfaced from the kiss, since he had spent most of the time with his tongue inside her mouth and unable to breathe. She wrapped her legs around him, brushing up against his erection. He hissed and thrust his hips forward reflexively. But it wasn't going to be enough to please her in this covered state; he needed something more. To set her over the edge, feel her writhing under him, calling out his name.

Hoshi lifted his own shirt over his head, hoping she would follow suit as he continued bumping up against her in a slow, steady rhythm. He hoped it wouldn't be too much of a distraction that they couldn't remove their clothing at the same time.

[Dina Listra]

Dina moaned as his hips pressed against her. Sadly, this sent her legs weak and she flopped back onto the bed. But he moved against her still, his body searching for hers automatically. As he began pulling off his shirt she wondered if he was too far gone already and she wouldn't get her release...Of course she hoped that wasn't the case.

Moaning quietly, she splayed her fingers on his chest, marveling at how strong he was beneath his bookworm lifestyle. She reached up and licked about his nipple, grinning at the reaction. But as she could feel his hardness pressing against her, she knew he would grow impatient with teasing fairly quickly.

She sat up a bit and began pulling off her shirt. A pink flush spread across the newly exposed flesh, partly from arousal and partly from embarassment. Unlike him, she didn't really have a very nice nude body. But at this point, he probably wouldn't be turned off by anything. That was a bit depressing, actually. Even so, she shed and tossed her shirt away in a flash.

But she still felt self-concious. Instinctively, she hugged herself close to him so he couldn't really see her, but as soon as she did her hips collided with his. She saw fireworks and arched against him, her upper body almost completely exposed. God, please don't let him be dissapointed....

[Hoshi Sohma]

Hoshi smiled as she followed suit and stripped off her shirt. He hoped they would last long enough to lose the rest of their clothes. He didn't think there would be much foreplay tonight.

Dina's cold tongue on his warm body made him arch his back, shoving his chest in her face, wishing that she would do something more with him.

As his lover leaned into him, her hips brushed up against his sensitive erection again and his short fingernails digging slightly into the smooth skin on her back. They needed to get rid of the rest of their clothes. He reached around her to undo the clasp on her bra-- it was the most reachable garment--and let it drop to the floor. He dimly remembered the last time they did this and wondered if her bra was still in her office. He would have to find out.