Boy I hope I don't offend with this but I gotta say it.

As of late I have had my moral compass spun completely off its axis. For a while there up was down, left was right, being nice was being mean.

I have had my issues here, mostly through miss communications, and bad reactions on my part.

But the latest incident really threw me for a loop.

I have lost someone I thought was a friend, and apparently made another feel bad, and that person has yet to communicate with me, so I may have closed the door on that one.

Had I been a weaker person, I may have slit my wrist right then and there. Thankfully I am far stronger than that, though wanting to die certainly entered my mind. But that is unfortunately a very common wish for me.

The statement was in response to someone (for lack of a better term) having someone they liked passing away.

What is really sad is the statement I made was meant in absolutely no way to offend, in fact it was a comforting statement I myself had received when my father passed.

The problem I have is it seems many here think my intent is to offend. My whole reason for being on this site is to hurt people and make them feel bad. To put down entire cultures, and to make fun of the subject of this forum.

I have to ask, why do people think this way?

Why do you assume that a statement I make, that may not have been thought out correctly was meant from its very inception to cause pain and misery?

I have been called thoughtless, cruel, mean, viscous, and all manner of horrible things which is so far from me it isn't even funny.

I have been around very rude and cruel people much of my life, and unfortunately it has effected how I communicate and joke. I am doing my best to do away with those tendencies, but when I offend and someone chooses to keep their views of my offensive secret, it really does not help. It causes a wound that festers.

It seems some here find the negative where there is none.

I just want to make clear. Unless I say in no uncertain terms I intend to smash your feelings into the ground, I in no way mean to verbally insult, or harm anyone on this forum. Nor their customs.

I came here because we all here like an artist that is one of the most amazing artists in the music industry that has existed in a long time. I find it nice to converse with people from all over the world.

Why would I want to hurt people I would like to connect with?

That makes no sense.

For those wondering why I stick around, well, there are some here that I can still talk to without offending, and I like Mana, and want to keep abreast of what is going on in the world of Mdm, Mon Amour, along with Aesthetics.

I sure hope I did not offend with this. I really and truly do.

I totally understand how having to deal with cruel and rude comments can feel. However, if you have an issue with something someone said outside of the forums, even if that person is a member here, you should discuss it with that person in private. If the issue has to do with something someone said on these forums just PM a mod.

I'm not taking any sides since I don't know what the issue you're mentioning is about or where it happened. Also, being a mod, I choose to stay neutral and won't intervene unless something posted here goes against the rules.

I certainly don't intend to check Facebook, LiveJournal, Twitter, MSN or any other site to prevent issues from happening here.

I'm going to close this thread to avoid drama, especially since it doesn't seem to be about something that happened here.